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Mentally, i have been writing blogs everyday...but when it comes to running my fingers on the keyboard...i freeze, meditate looking at the monitor, switch off this electronic drama and off i go to sleep. There's too much this computer offers...its the vastness of the opportunities it fakes to offer...and thats what keeps me away from it. i like to be around this device but not use it....to its optimum. A junkie's idea of self-control.

Nah! i never drift towards d forbidden land...it has never intrigued me...the so-called forbidden lands are forbidden because they kill people's appetite...as it is, these days people don't get hungry. So much for my reason to not come very often to u holygrowl. But when i come, u cant complain...cause i really growl. don't i? i deserve ur membership, oops! ownership....sorry! but ownership is the word. ok, modulator....are u happy now?

There's so much to let out, hence no outlet....too many thoughts...making the pathway all jammed...fear of stampede.

i would come here again later, ill be more organized then, there a certain disequilibrium in my thoughts presently. such states are meant to keep u mum....though im liking the random talks, im imagining that my kind of people would understand what im actually getting around, what i m actually preferring to talk. but talks are not the answer and so throwing my fist on the table , even the answer is not the answer....cause u wont stop looking around till u find the best answer....and would u find the best answer? i dont know...so ill keep throwing my fist on the table and punching wall out of the blue and saying 'damn, i hate everything' with silence ahead and silence behind.