theories

They all arranging their clothes, deciding on their looks for the big day, i can imagine all these girls must be thinking of which shade of lipstick with which dress, which pair of shoes, what accessory....it is then i force myself to think about how to arrange for a good econometrics book to put all that data into use...but this data and all those tables are also of no use...they havent been so far.it has been two consecutive days, i have shown no sign of making peace that i will not be there at the big event. My mind says that its ok, its better in a way (which way, i dont know)...i cant see it now..each day dissolves into another. No progress...no concentration....knees are getting OK gradually...walking is less of a labour. People who r successful...were they lucky or better decision-makers?If u want something bad enough, it comes to you....really?? My bad enough might not be bad enough for someone else but i have wanted things bad enough...but they didnt come to me. and now i dont want them bad enough, i have stopped wanting things, not of all of them...but im on my way...i feel spent in wanting things, continue wanting them and not getting them still. This theory must be working for people it is meant to work for....so they start writing it in their precription paper. But if I stop wanting anything...wouldnt be a better mechanism? There would be no anger, no sorrow. What should happen if that happens...i'd like to see.i'd try to reach that point and then see....