Sun saves my life

not a right time to blog, away from fitdom. earth's gone away from sun...its fartherest in the cycle we call a year. another cycle coming to an end, technically. another cycle would begin in roughly one month's time....there would be information bombardment through artificial satellites on the eve of end of 2006th cycle....ha! as if this number is correct.
i sometimes think i have carried out a command being only this tall and only this wide and only this heavy. world through various means sent commands that 'hey, u r allowed only this much space-consumption'...and ofcourse my ancestors whispered a complying code in me. im quite a shrunken entity physically in comparison to my ancestors who were allowed a much larger lattitude, every which way. my sibling was slightly more successful in combatting this world's conspiracy of shrinking people physically trading it off with lots of information. A large chunk of this information was trash, some pieces of it was even delimiting, it set boundaries to my horizon, regular consumption of synthetic information killed my own ability to think 'outside the box'...i was so addicted to consume 'outside the box' thinking that others did. I have murdered my DNA make-up by being a complying student of the world and now i feel pushed around...having such insignificant surface area. is it too late to change things...i ask my self. if i remain motivated to do something abt this injustice, ill crack a peaceful answer.