new year!

we all have faces that haunt us at night....and when things stretch too far...then, in the days.
bad day indeed....it only unfolded to prove how less important i am for certain people, im concerned abt. mum informed me that im psychotic and reprehensible. i got acquainted with inexplicable jealousy, directed towards me by of a woman i have gone out of my way to help many a times. a baby who is the center of my personal universe declared that he doesn't enjoy spending time with me, i give benefit of doubt to him though because i hit him today after he suggested, that the woman who i had a row with, is much better than me, he made these horrifying confessions in that woman's presence....i was drenched in a blue-green wrath...and forced all my strength in slaps....blasphemy indeed..'cause the smacks had changed my life in a mini-way....hated myself for having thrashed the baby for his innocence. rich came in handy and very helpful in those trying times. now my temples are throbbing, and i feel completely drained and washed out...a lot of emotional stir dries me out...doesn't suit me. those slaps will haunt me for years ...have accumulated bad karmas ...enough to mess-up my many todays n tomorrows