chill in the air

Grrrrr...m growling. three days of rains and before that three of no sun...so almost six days depressing greyness. There was a brief entry of sun around 4 ...and my gawd...it was super-duper fine. i cant bear the thought that the whole of winters is still left...i dont like this weather...it sort of scares me....it instigates gloom & doom ...so hard to pull through.its so cold alreadt n half of november left, then 31 days of december, another 31 of jan, 28 of feb....fortnight or so of march...120 days approx...kaise niklega yeh waqt....
i dont believe i used to like this weather once...now its a complete no-no...i understand the undertone of 'tamso ma jyotir gamaya'. as i close my eyes, i see heaven....big grassland, many little kids playing wearing colourful flowery dresses, sun shining but not relentlessly, swings, my people all smiling ear to ear .....i dont wanna wake-up