May 2012

-Souldering hot days....have stopped keeping tab on temperature outside.....it must be very very high.....dying to smell earth with monsoon hitting the city....its 10 days away they say, those meteorology (spelling ??) department people. For some odd reason, i have always felt that those people know nothing or almost nothing. Rain, rain, come this, please please come this way. - last two weeks....positively busy, spending time with mum and lil vinni...im happily numb abt everything else. Man is a social animal. Women too.God should forgive me for all the times I have been cruel towards him...and i should be patient dealing with his reluctance to learn math. - Some people have turned turtle in their approach....but hey, they must have felt it a right strategy. So cool.

Random walk

Whats that machine called in hospitals that shows heartbeats? hmmm....yeah! ECG ..... electrocardiogram. So does peace look like that....that dot travelling straight or a constant and consistent crest and trough........i remember feeling totally peaceful when i was little.....what changed? Then, that place in rampur also kept my heartbeat inside me ...blissful....turning into ash and becoming soil, is that peace? God lived in mountains? or near oceans? or where i live... hot arid climate where hot winds always keep eyes semi-closed.....how does that matter where god lived? Obviously, he lives in me..in the chair i am sitting on...this computer...this wall...everything....but where's peace? somebody define it in a way i want to know it..... Big changes in the pipeline...compltely unprepared.....i need equilibrium. need to float in warm water and not swept off by a high tide. They will wait until im prepared. Thats it...! Dont drink ever but act as if u r saturated, completely sozzled.....fun..real fun it is. :)