alpha to omega...yummy brain.

Have just finished gorging an unimaginable amount of sweets...my mouth is glue now, sticky...i heard its good to cure gloom. I identify my present phase as that...spirits blighted. Brahminam madhuram priyam. but why? are they more prone to get despondent? veggies, low salt diet, and low spice content. could that be it. all pacifying intakes...pacifies a bit too much.

aah!...it was sort of a new revelation. a theory explained to me in so many words .The wrong things one does and dont talk abt...cripples one's present and future. So, the lazy people we know who say that they have no great ambitions, they are at peace with nothingness etc. but have a strong emotional undercurrence n we feel it...are actually cognizant of the fact that they have locked their irreconcilable secrets in the black box of their brains, that they have....sssshhhhh!!... that they have done treachery in the past.....heeeee! yeah! so they are prisoners of their souls. The only way out is to make a list of all those dark things u did and u dont even discuss them with urself ( pseudo-smart way to forget these things but they dont help baby)...make all those things sit down in that chair in front of u and face them, right in their face. Give those phantoms ur reasons. Its a long haul but it pays off, hopefully or so i believe. It can vary from simplest of tete-a-tete to most complex..lithium to Osmium. Example: yes, i broke that windhshield of our car in August 1990 which eventually cost my parents dearly. My reason, it was an absolute accident. lesson: precaution is indeed better than cure, playing football with rocks? a baffoon does that, a baffoon did that; Secretly wished our "Santa Claus" gone Reason: it seemed then, if he didnt go, we would. Too many oppressive failures to deal with. Outcome: we had indeed become lighter than air, slept endlessly. Lesson: dilute the repercussion of ur failures when ur staying with people, otherwise they wish u the way to door. list is long, night is short. i wish i was staying in a big-big-big-big joint family. yeah! Vasudev kutumb kamb...the world is one family and everyone of us belongs to the same family. Myopic visionaries wont get that now....let them remain busy in the name of religion, doctrines with no enduring value...for few more years.